Avery has always been my easy baby. Not easy, given the mountain of an issue we call sleep we had to conquer, but easier than Eirinn was. Eirinn was my high maintenance, cranky, colicky baby. Avery has been my happy, smiley, easy going daughter…until now.
For the past two weeks, giving an explanation as to why I’ve been so quiet lately, she has been, to put it mildly, unpleasant. I’m not sure what’s wrong, if anything. She has popped out a few teeth (totalling 8 now), has a very mild cold (just a bit of a leaky nose, which may also be due to the teeth), but other than that nothing is unusual. She’s not constipated, or the opposite. She’s getting plenty of sleep, at the appropriate times, continuing to sleep for 11 hours straight at night and two moderate naps (45 minutes to an hour and a half). We’re going out at times, so she’s not bored. She’s getting plenty to eat; breastfeeding 5 or 6 times a day, two meals and two snacks, so she’s not hungry. She’s not showing any signs of having a food sensitivity or allergy. She’s just grumpy.
If I’m holding her, she’s crying and wriggling to get down. When I set her down, she cries and tries to climb up my leg. I put her in her high chair, beside me, with a toy, she cries. When I give her a snack, she eats it, then immediately cries. And when I say “cry”, I don’t mean the sad, poor baby cry. I mean a loud, angry, pissed off baby cry. The kind of cry that smacks my face when I get too close or throws toys and sippy cups when they are within arms reach. The frustrated, fed up part of me says this is happening “all the time”, but it’s actually not. Perhaps only 50% of the time. But it sure does feel like all the time.
All this is very trying. It’s exhausting mentally (just when I cured the physical exhaustion) and emotionally, not knowing how to fix the broken baby. She’s my baby, why don’t I know how to fix her? She used to be so happy. What happened (or is happening) to make her so unhappy? Is this just the way things are now? Or will she get over this? Is there something wrong I’m not seeing?