Day 5 – Something you hope to do in your life.
I’m a pretty simple girl. Not simple “dumb”, but simple as in it doesn’t take a whole lot for me to be happy. I’ve got the family I want, I’ve got the friends I want, I live where I want. I don’t have visions of grandeur when it comes to travel or achieving fame or accumulating a vast wealth, although I wouldn’t mind any of that.
But if I had to pick one thing that I hope I will be able to do in my life (which, apparently, I do), it would be to find professional satisfaction. Even, if I dare to be bold, professional happiness. I’m not even sure what it would take for that to happen. I know I love to write. I know I love to make people laugh or think or be entertained. I know I love to be creative. I also know I’m not completely comfortable at customer service of any sort. I’m not a great business mind and finances bore me.
I’d like to do something that fulfills me. Something that, when asked “and what do you do?”, I can answer without preempting my answer with “just…”. Right now, I like my job in that I like the people I work with and my bosses are pretty cool and the pay is fair and the benefits are more than fair and it’s close to home and I’m good at it and I feel as secure as anyone possibly could in this economic climate. But still.
I hope that one day I’ll be able to find something that excites me. Something that I can earn a decent living doing that will bring me great joy and a feeling of completeness, professionally. Like I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing. Like when I’m dead and gone and people ask my children what their mother did, they can answer with pride. My mother was a …
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So who knows what this all adds up to mean. I haven’t even begun to try to figure it out. But that’s my hope. That one day I’ll be somebody who loves what they do and not just someone who does what they do out of necessity.