These two I’m going to gloss over. I’M A CHEATER. They overlap with a couple of the 30 Days Of Truth posts, and I don’t feel like a) rehashing two stories that are not all that awesome, and b) giving them more of a spotlight than they deserve. I’m over it all. Telling them again would look like I’m not. I’ll link to them here, so I technically fulfil the 30 Days Of Shamelessness, but if you’ve already read them, I’ll spare you a complete reproduction.
I’m better at forgiving other people than I am at forgiving myself. I will feel terrible about Day 14 for as long as I live, but Day 13? Forgiven, moved on, the past is the past, water under the bridge, that which does not kill us only makes us stronger, que sera sera. I only bring it up because the Days Of Shamelessness commanded that I do so, and honestly, there’s nothing else I’d want to even bother mentioning. Like I’ve said before, I don’t hold grudges. I can’t be bothered. They’re a waste of energy and if something is done to you and you stew in rage and self-pity and frustration, you lose. Deal with the situation, voice your side, stand up for yourself, most certainly, but to hold a grudge is anything but healthy. Move on.
I excel at doing this with other people, but with myself, not so much. It’s something I definitely need to work on – letting go of guilt. Not that I have a lot to feel guilty about, and that which I do are generally minor in nature, upon reflection. But I need to start taking what I said up there about grudges being a waste of energy and apply it to myself.